(July 1995)
O To Be My Father's Dragon :: Hole in your shoe Mote in your eye Trompe L'oeil and pie in the sky What the hell is wrong with you? You're doing what you're supposed to do Take me from this land of slaves Where every fool is bought Where tomorrow's just another day And goodness comes to naught Hole in your shoe Mote in your eye Trompe L'oeil and pie in the sky What the hell is wrong with you? You're doing what you're supposed to do... (May 26-31, 1995)
I Wish I Was A Machine :: I wish I was a machine (I wouldn't have to care) x 4 I'm full of dust and you're flashy and new You're eyes are bright and mine are just blue You live in forever and I live in a dream You skip the waves and I skim the cream I wish I was a machine (I wouldn't have to care) I sing my love to the dead machine Like a dog in heat when the moon is green The beauty of the game is there are no rules I want you so bad must I suffer these fools? (June 23, 1995)
La La La La La La La :: Your mouth looks like you been eating red candy Your hair is spikey and black and streaked with blue You're kind of long and pleasingly skinny Sitting on the corner with a sister or two La la la la la la She's a punk rock girl x4 The sun's coming up and the sky is blue Are you bored and lonely too? I heard you're in a band and they say you play a mean guitar Your sister said if you really wanted you could be a star Come to think about it you kind of look like Johnny Marr Would you like to take a walk with me we won't go too far La la la la la la la She's a punk rock girl The sun's coming up and the sky is blue Can I come home with you? (June 14, 1995)
Without Her :: She was so dumb and she was so smart She made dying here special art Stumbled through life in a cellophane haze I still live in her negative space Without her Without Susan It's just not the same She was made of ice she was made of fire Clutched with the madness of her cat-eyed desire Black hair and green eyes dark with her pain Life goes on but it's just not the same Without her Without Susan It's just not the same... (June 26, 1995)
That's What She Said :: Sometimes I feel like such a freak A sideshow martyr a chicken head geek Sometimes I feel so unique The air catches fire whenever I speak Sometimes I feel like I'm dead The wires get cut inside of my head Other times the world is my toy I'm an angel on the wing a wide-eyed wonder boy What makes you think you're the one? You're not so special There's plenty more like you where you come from Sometimes I'm in love with a double-barrel blast Feel so suicidal but that feeling doesn't last Other times I fall in love with myself i squeeze so hard it can't be good for my health What makes you think you're the one? You're not so special There's plenty more like you where you come from... (June 8, 1995)
Rabies :: I WANT YOU!!! (June17, 1995)
I'll Only Wait Forever :: The truth is seldom ever beautiful But I know that you are not the truth You empty me completely out until I'm full Of lies and piss and my forgotten youth I have no honor I would climb any walls just to be with you Would it be too much to expect for you to explain what I should do? I should do... I'll only wait forever for you girl I'll only wait forever for you girl Let me know your mind before it's too late Please don't waste your time in asking why You know that only fools would put their trust in fate Marking time until they have to die I have no honor I would climb any walls just to be with you Would it be too much to expect for you to explain what I should do? I should do... I'll only wait forever for you girl... (June 17, 1995)
If You Want It, Take It :: You should never be completely understood If you wanna be a start go to Hollywood Don't render unto Caesar cause Caesar's a fool And once a day try to break a rule If you want it take it x 4 The truth is written in comic books If you don't wanna see then you better not look Kick a rock and you'll break your bones Dreams are made of sticks and stones If you want it take it... (June 17, 1995)
The Way It Should Be :: I won't apologize for all the tears in your sky I don't wanna know why you choose to close your eyes Riddles of years ago Lessons that love deceives Everyone's on their knees Your words won't let me go Maybe I'm getting stupid as I watch myself grow old Maybe I just need a blanket 'Cause lately I feel so cold Light another cigarette as I watch the world go by There's nothing sadder than an angel who's forgotten how to fly Forgive me if i seem afraid I hardly know what to say I'll understand if you can't stay The sun has come out the shadows fade Committed to hands I can't see I live in impossibilities It's no surprise to me This is the way it should be Maybe I'm getting stupid... (June 8, 1995)
Absolute Zero :: Susan tried to tell me 'Absolute zero slash eternity's ring God doesn't hear a word you say Better close your eyes and sing' Life is endless beatings and scorn Pain is your beginning and end Susan wishes she'd never been born And I just want a friend This might be the last time This might be the last time we ever feel alive (I love you...am I forgiven?) Once upon a time the garden was pretty But that was so long ago Now nothing grows like it used to do So count the suns as they come and go Susan tried to tell me 'Absolute zero slash eternity's ring Dance your madness endlessly Close your eyes and sing' This might be the last time This might be the last time we ever feel alive... (June 10, 1995)
I'm Not Going To Walk Away :: I'm not gonna walk away this time I've spent too much of my life trying to toe the line They say a man in my position has responsibilities The way my life is going some chaos might be good for me My friends all say that I've got it made Sitting in the shadows sipping my pink lemonade I think about you all the time I wonder where you are tonight Is it so wrong to want to trade my darkness for some light? I'm not gonna walk away this time I can't pretend that I don't love you It's been three weeks and I miss you more everyday I wish that I could just rise above you But I'd sell my soul if I could be with you today I'm not gonna walk away this time... (June 18, 1995)
Waiting On A Friend :: I've never been to heaven but I've been told Angels up in heaven got the best jelly roll Red line wiggle like a snake in the garden You're on your knees begging God for a pardon Wheels in a row and my ducks in a line Everybody knows what I got on my mind Truth is a lie is a truth of its own Exposed optic nerve hardens into bone Through an open window emerald water rushes in Irridescent bubbles dance across your skin Three hundred thirty five dollar fender mint The morning came and the morning went I'm only waiting on a friend Don't think I'll see her again... (June 29, 1995)
