(May 1993)
Bad Person :: I'm a bad person I was born bad I live a bad life I'll probably die bad I'm a bad person I watch tv It gives me bad thought makes me do bad things I'm so crazy I'm just evil I'm just dirt on the heel of your boot I'm so filthy I'm so screwed up I'm so bad that it aint even cute I'm a bad person I kicked a dog once I read comic books I even spit on sidewalks I'm a bad person Yeh I'm so guilty I should be punished for all the bad things I do I'm so crazy... (Recorded January 28, 1993)
Killing Time Again :: I'm sorry if I'm not what you wanted me to be It's killing time again Kill me again for old time's sake I'm sorry if I don't seem to know my place It's killing time again Kill me again for old time's sake I'm sorry if I'm not good enough for you It's killing time again Kill me again for old time's sake... (March 1, 1993)
Little Boy Lost :: Everybody loves you Everybody hates you Everybody wants you but nobody needs you Little boy lost Little boy lost his way You wandered off alone now you can't find your way home Lying in a strange bed dreaming strange dreams in your head Little boy lost Little boy lost his way I'm so afraid I'm so afraid After the war they mailed me home in a little square cage made out of my bones My well-meaning parents stuffed me under the bed turned out the lights and left me for dead One night I made my getaway I've been on the run since I'm still running today I burned down their house and I never looked back Guess I'll keep on running till it all fades to black Pain is a needle to put you to sleep. (February 14, 1993)
Lost :: I'm just a little boy who's lost his way What will become of me? I'm just a little girl who's lost her way What will become of me? I'm just a little boy who's lost his way What will become of me What will become of me?... (February 14, 1993)
Face Up to Your Life :: There is no hope There is no meaning There is no purpose Life is agony No easy solution No cheap illlusion Face up to your life Face up to your life Be a hero Know what you know Face up to your life Face up to your life... (March 19, 1995)
Susan Says :: Susan says 'I don't want to live today' Susan says 'Life's just a game and I don't want to play.' (February 21, 1993)
Our Love Was :: Afternoon sunlight burst through the trees The radio plays jazz soft as a summer breeze A warm percolating cup of mocha cream coffee My life today is a fabulous reality We walked the river bottom late in July Clouds like cream floating on a clear blue sky We lay down in the grass and dreamed that we could fly When I held your hand in mine I felt so high The day unfurled like a ribbon on a spool Time flies when you're having gun as a rule When the moon rose in the east it shone like a jewel We swam at dawn in the lake the water was cool. (January 31, 1993)
My World Turned to Black :: His face in the pale lamplight was white He said 'You believe nothing with the evidence lost' I tried to think I was someone else Yeh right But who needs happiness at such a cost? I saw the ghosts of children at their games ripped from craters too big for hearts Heard the giants calling my name All day the engines stopped and started My world turned to black Patriotic neighbors parachuting from the roofs A soldier at attention his head broke open in flames The latest dead what power pulls them down? What proof? I saw the ghosts of children at their games Heart the giants calling my name All day the engines stopped and starterd My world turned to black From the very first coming down I knew a woman She was lovely in her bones When she moved she moved more ways than one The year's arc a completed round I saw the ghosts of children at their games Heard the giants calling my name All day the engines stopped and started My world turned to black... (March 22, 1993)
This World is Gonna Let You Down :: Spotlight had you covered in the combat zone You kind of feel like you're all alone They open fire when your cover's blown Pick up your feet or pick up a stone And I know Yes I know This world is gonna let you down Freedom's just another word for nowhere left to run Atomic bomb exploding in your head You could be right or you could be dead You never listened to a single word I said You always done the bleeding Now you're gonna be bled And I know Yes I know This world is gonna let you down And everything is one thing after another When the sky falls down you better run for cover Your run for your daddy and you run for your mother When they turn you away you better run a little further And I know this world is gonna let you down... (February 11, 1993)
Let's Go to the Grill :: Let's go to the Grill All our friends are there Let's go to the Grill We can breathe the sweet smoke air Let's go to the Grill All our friends are there Let's go to the Grill We can act real weird and no one cares... (February 5, 1993)
Lullaby :: It's alright Daddy's here now Close your eyes no more bad dreams And if you die before you wake I pray some god your sould to take It's okay the monsters are gone Go to sleep I will stay here by your side And if you die before you wake I pray some god your soul to take It's alright we live in fear all our lives Hold my hand I don't mind if you cry And if you die before you wake I pray some god your soul to take... (February 19, 1993)
Falling Down :: Did your head ever crack open like a rotten egg? Did life ever split you down the middle your guts running down your legs? How can you know what it's like to have your whole world falling down? When I walked into that gun shop and held that pistol in my hand I knew I could make everyone see I knew I could make them understand what it's like having your whole world falling down around you There's a crack like thunder and my life finally makes sense Finally I know why I'm here Now my life finally makes sense My world is falling down around me I'm falling and you're gonna fall with me... (March 12, 1993)
Peel :: You were right People don't change They just peel back another layer of skin Honesty is not so simple The simple truths are always lies Open our mouths and devils fly out You say we can make it but I've got my doubts Don't worry if my heart turns to stone Just leave me easy Just leave me alone There's the mirror Here's the razor Go ahead remove everything that offends you Open our mouths and devils fly out... (March 8, 1993)
If My Hands Weren't Dreaming :: The night she was born we sang until the roof fell The very next morning she was fed to the sky Angels beat their wings so that we won't forget her I'd hold her now if my hands weren't dreaming Three days later I saw her in the TeePee Lounge drinking champagne from a black high heel She said 'The fountain is broken Only dogs drink there now' How should we mourn her when the spring rains come? Wherever she goes she's slanted to the bone I'd hold her now if my hands weren't dreaming When we fly to the stars we'll grow lillies for the poor Madness for a sidekick and moonlight for a door I have plans to burn my drum machine and more but tomorrow is Sunday and I'll be asleep Wherever she goes she's slanted to the bone... (April 1, 1993)
